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 December 27th of 2025 - Autism and Friendship, and However Else Today Went (and Whatever)

Above is a drawing depicting the events of Dec 27, 2025. Below this, I discuss how autism makes me miss my friends and think about them often. I get so emotional that I cry sometimes.

 Today when I went out, I saw many things that reminded me of my friend Steve May. Two notable things I saw were cheese and a striped tee on a mannequin in the window of a clothing shop. When I see things that remind me of my friends, I get fuzzy warmth in my chest or an aching sadness that feels like a crater in my chest. Oddly, today, it was both. I think about my friends a lot and tend to think to myself, "I should be telling my friends hello," but I don't if they seem 'really, really-ultra-omega cool' to me. I just go home and think about the specific friend over and over again - or call them if they're online. But I don't if that person is busy and has a life. But sometimes I might, but not, but might... but not. I ate free cracker samples, steak and guinness pie, taiyaki with custard in it, apple slices and drank my last strawberry punch Jack Daniel's beer. Oh, and a pepsi. And whatever else happened today. I watched some anime with my friend over at this awesome blog. She's pretty cool.

 

That's pretty much it other than me taking the dog out to poo.  Which also reminded me that Steve hates picking up doggy poo. I'm such an idiot sometimes it's laughable.

 

Peace for tonight. 

 

(EDIT: it's autism because I hyperfocus, but maybe it's also BPD because I get emotional and cry over my loved ones. Just know that I love you all nonetheless.) 

Late Christmas Post

 

Late Christmas Cult Figure Fanart Post

The Cult Figures out having a beer. Drawn crudely in my sketchbook because Christmas was lonely.

 

Christmas was not fun, I want to see the Cult Figures. But hey, at least I got cute boots and an outfit out of it. I felt like this all that entire day. Neurotypical stares were boring into me. I didn't have a lot of fun. More fun next year, I bet.

To be loved is to be........?

 

To Be Loved is to Be...? 

 

Woobified extensively by a fangirl?

 

TL;DR visual gags and a joke on the phrase, "To be loved is to be changed." This is a joke about my fanart. Uhhh... to be loved is to be... *checks notes*... woobified? via fanart from fans? (one icky one in particular... what is she anyways, a bug?)

 Uhhh... I don't think that's the line...

Anyways... Woobification is like moeification, but based on one's own emotions and not the viewers. making things cutesy and silly because you feel that way about the subject...? moeification is done to make the viewer see the subject as cute or silly, woobification is done by and for the person making the art (I think I sound stupid right now....?)
This is just how I draw the guys sometimes. Steve is shown stopping me due to curiosity - not because he's a hero. There is a difference between a guitar hero and a hero, I think. Well! Are my horns real? The question is... Would an angel be guilty? Oh, never mind...

Is the formatting shitty? Oh well, not my problem.
 

Jon and Lee as moe anime dudes

 

Exactly as the tin says:

Jonathan Hodgson, smiling. Probably flushed from having beer.

 Lee McFadden, flushed from laughing hard...

 (That happens to me a lot, too.)

  

Steve May is kawaii + befriending of Lee and Fraser

 I don't know either...

He just looked like, shy and cute. or something. I don't know what's wrong with me.

 Anyways, the entire month of December has been such hell for me that I honestly think God hates me or maybe I'm going insane. I keep losing friends and jobs and everything in between and I am not certain how much longer I can hold on. God is testing me because he hates me for not bringing peace to the world via my own sacrifice. Because of this, I went into psychosis last night. I drew Steve like a shy cartoon thing because Steve makes me happy. I think I have brain fungus... Needless to say, I ended up asleep and woke up to my phone service being off. Wow. Fucking amazing. Another piece of shit on top of the bullshit cake that is my miserable life. At least I drew Steve and that made me feel less like shit. He is one of the only good remaining things on this God-forsaken planet alongside Cult Figures and The Beano.

 

On other news, I befriended Lee McFadden (bassist of Cult Figures) on Facebook and now he has my moe anime style drawing of him as his profile pic. That and I also befriended Fraser, the vocalist - augh, all of them are so cool. I literally cried and wanted to puke out of glee and over-excitement.

 

I am hoping things get better. Until then, here is the end of my stupid post and Lee's FB layout:

 

 

i love them all so much it's killing me 

cult figures fanart AGAIN

 OMG NO WAY!!!!!!!

ANOTHER CULT FIGURES FANART FROM DEEDEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 i need to see them so bad

UFGHGHHHHGHGHHGHGHHGGHGHHGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MIGHT CRY I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOUUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love drawing tjhem so much UGHHHHHGUGHHH UGHHHHH UGHGHHHHG i lovce them so muych ughhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WBDTyf7dchaswderxcfquywschxjawshegyc I LOVE THEM  ok thats enpough thank you <3 i love you Cult Figures

all my mind

Brain Spores.

 

 

I love my motivational brain spores (Walter the Softy, Julian Cope, Buster Bloodvessel, Steve May) 

 

Cult Figures Fanart

Facebook ruined the quality......

So here's my really awful fanart of Cult Figures...

I have nothing else to add... awks. (I love them all so bad I cried)

 

DeeDee's First Post...

 

  Welcome to the... Whatever this is....

 Hi, my name is Deniela or Dennis. I'm currently twenty-two years old at the time of writing this and have just decided to use this as my internet diary rather than Twitter. Despite my other name being 'Dennis', I am not male nor do I identify as a man—let me just make that clear before anything goes on... okay, so... I am a dorky lady with autism and some other disorders, but that just means my brain is interesting and my interests are varied and unusual. That's cool, right? Not only this, but I draw pictures. My inspirations include the likes of these artists: Richard Scarry, Eric Carle, Jared Lee, Shirley Hughes, Laura Cornell, Steve May, Kevin Henkes,Jirou Maeda, Toyoo Ashida, Carlos Grangel, Helen Craig, Hunt Emerson and Tom Patterson... but I'm not quite at their skill level yet, despite drawing for at least fifteen years. Those aren't all of them, obviously, but they are the most notable.

Anyway, here is my awful self-portrait...

 

 This is how I draw myself, by the way.

As a kid, I always wanted to illustrate books for children or make music. I used to compose music on Mario Paint Composer (not joking). Now I just draw myself with torpedo tits and fan-girl over people I talk to, British comic and TV characters and draw self-ship art. Yay. 

 I don't know what else to add. I love you.

 Thank you for reading, or something like that.